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redeemeroflight
26 May 2011 @ 10:21 pm

We spent two years together and in the end I was given less than expected and my heart was broken. It was once red, warm and radiant and while it slowly broke, the red turned transparent and its warmth and radiance was overcome by the coldness that I felt. My heart was broken into glassy pieces. And nothing felt worse.

As I mend those transparent pieces together again. An old friend appeared to me while I slept. I first felt his ghostly arms around me then I heard his whisper.

“My love, you left me for so long” His voice soft and gentle as he stroked my cheek. “You found someone real to hold you at night” he stated. “He is no longer mine to keep to myself at night, Edward” I found myself admitting as I dream. “Ah, that is why you are once again entwined in my ghostly touch” He realized. “What has happened my love? I thought you would never return to me for you have found your Edward” But before I could answer his fingers touch a slick wetness on my cheek. “If I have, why would I be here in your transparent arms?” “You did not answer my question” He ignored me and said. “I didn’t imagine you to ask questions,” I said cruelly. “Forgive me my love. Always remember I am here to hold you at night while you dream or while you cry until all the pieces are together again and your heart glows radiant once more. Always remember you have my love forever and nothing will come between us but the man who holds the power to redden your heart and light it with such radiance only the Gods above know of. I hope when that day arrives you will never return to me. I hate seeing you so broken with barely any pieces left” I felt the chill of his arms tightening around me his fingers continuing to faintly kiss my tears without smearing it or stopping it. “Oh Edward, If only such a man exists” I sob “Hope, my love. You must have hope” I feel the pat on the side of my neck where he kissed me before he disappears. He isn’t real. I’ve only imagined him in my loneliness. I always did since the very moment I learned to love.

Edward was my solution to my loneliness. My companion when I feel alone in a crowd and in my dreams. He is the one man who will always hold my heart delicately between his fingers without marring it in any way. He is my angel. My Castiel when all else fails. Edward will always be the arms that catch me when I’m falling, the smile that’ll keep me confident, and the whisper that’ll save me from this loneliness.
Once again I wait for that moment when I'll never feel the ghostly chill of his arms around me again

Note: Hey guys! I know, its been awhile and I don't know if theres still someone reading out there! :D Hope things are well for you guys. This is something new I've written. :D 
 
 
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redeemeroflight
12 September 2010 @ 02:28 am
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 11/11
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Warnings: Attempted Rape, & Sex
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiosity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: Sigh, this was a good right. I think I'll stick to One shots for awhile before I write up another one of these. Thank you all for reading! I hope you like the ending cause its like 8 pages long. You all are awesome! *gives you all chocolate cake* Now, time for me to sleep.


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redeemeroflight
10 September 2010 @ 02:19 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 10/11
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Warnings: Attempted Rape, violence and angst.
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiosity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: Yes, I know, super super late. Well, Uni started, so I started getting lazy cause of the heat outside. I live on a freakin' ISLAND! its not even tropical. TwT Its a full on desert! *sadness* and its Eid so we got family time and all. :D  Anyways, I was writing this chapter and expected it to be really long and all. But I decided to cut it into chapters. So here it is! Chapter 11 will be the last. I don't think I'll continue this when Uni officially starts regular classes. I'll be too busy. T.T Anyways, ENJOY! 

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redeemeroflight
05 September 2010 @ 03:35 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 9/??
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Warnings: Attempted Rape, violence and angst.
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiosity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: Sorry this is late guys! a lot of stuffies was going on. But I managed to start writing this in the car waiting for my mom. OAo Ipod touch is awesome like that. Hope you guys like it. ^w^  ❤❤ Please, do comment. It encourages me more to write.!

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redeemeroflight
03 September 2010 @ 05:09 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 8/??
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiousity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: Ayyy nako! ang hirap naman ito! (rants in filipino) hahaha. Anyways, I finally finished chapter 8 after constantly being distracted by Drama. I'm going out later! yay! its my bros bday today. Hes like 11. O_O so young. I might not be able to update constantly anymore. Uni's starting on the 6th so I'll me soo busy since I'm running for honors and crap. Please, follow my twitter so you'll know if I'm writing a new chapter or not. Its : http://twitter.com/designmeahuman. Enjoy, ❤❤ Please, do comment. It encourages me more to write.!

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redeemeroflight
02 September 2010 @ 03:13 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 7/??
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, Hiroto/Nao and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiousity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: I actually rewrote this like more than 3 times. then I started getting really restless and anxious for no reason and I only wrote a bit then continuedm then wrote a bit then didn't. then did then didn't. you gets the point. Anyways, I ish planning to have Saga bring Tora to the awesome gay side! bwahahahaha, I did do finalize it with editing cause I was lazy. T-T Sowie. Anyways, I love love love your comments they are LOVE!   ❤❤ Please, do comment. It encourages me more to write.!


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I spent the whole day at work just wanting to get out as early as I could so I can go pick up Shou for lunch. I guess you could say I was a little bit excited. Okay, I was really excited. Plus, I don’t really want to be here. Everyone’s noticing the unnatural glow of happiness I had on my face and they’re teasing me about it like we were high school students barely out of junior high.

I couldn’t help it. I was happy for the first time in a very long while. I felt right with him and I couldn’t care less if Shou was a man. Just the way he moves, the way he sings, smiles, looks, sleeps, breath even is just flawless to me. Completely and utterly perfect.

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“Why do you keep on looking at your watch, Shou?” Saga teased.

“You waiting for someone?” He continued, he just couldn’t get enough. He’s been like this all morning. Teasing me non-stop as soon as I got in a little late this morning. I guess that's probably why. Oh My! Shou got in after we all got in. What was he doing?! OMG?! Gossip… gossip… gossip. Saga is such a girl sometimes.

“Shou, I just noticed. Who’s clothes are you wear? They’re most definitely not your size and I’ve never seen you in them before.” Tora asked with a curious look about him.

“No one in particular” I answered with a small smile.

“So they’re really not yours?” He asked again.

“No, I borrowed them for a day” I smiled some more.

I ignored them and tried to change the subject before Tora and Saga starts forcing me to talk like a lame as interrogation from a B rated cop movie. 1 more hour and I’ll be with him, just 1 more hour. I won’t let anyone ruin how happy I am.

“Lets continue, I want to hear how Sleepwalker sounds with the new mix” I said as I ran through the lyrics one more time before motioning to the guys to start playing.

I let the music drown me slowly as I started feeling like I was floating while I closed my eyes, then I moved my head forward and back really feeling the aggressiveness of the music and beat. I let in the sound of the bass and sang along with it.

‘tabibito ga tadoritsuita saki wa

koe no nai gareki ga tsumikasanaru tou no shita

 

nee kimi yo naze kimi wa hoshita no?

ai to iu kanbina hibiki no ringo wo

 

tenohira sashinobete mo

hanarete, hodoketeyuku zutto soko ni aru no ni

 

mabuta no naka utsushidashita hibi

kioku no iro yasashii kedo furerarenai

 

akeyuku sora meguru sekai made

yume to iu gekijyou de yasuragi to tomo ni

 

ikudome no asa ga kuru gitaa ni yorisoi

tsumahiku merodii kuru hazu no nai kimi e omoi haseteta

douka tomaranai tokei wo kizamasete’

I slowly felt my body automatically sway along with the music as Hiroto came in with the solo.

 

“ginga no ame kounen no kioku

itsu kara darou? wasurenu mama toki wa sugite

iroasenai utsukushiki kioku (saisei)

furishikiru yuki wo koe kimi no moto e yukou”

 

I sung the last verse and let the music fade before I opened my eyes and said

“That was great guys! I think that’ll do, what do you guys think” They all nod in agreement. Great! Now, to wait for… The moment I turned around in the direction of my bag so I could get it, I found Gackt watching me from the booth with a grin on his face as he waved, he wore a white tank top that hugged his muscles just right with a white button up shirt that made him look sexier than ever.  I don’t know how I got to him that fast but I did.

 

“Hey…” I said softly, I somehow hoped he’d just grab me and hug me already.

“Hey yourself” He answered; I can feel the tension between us.

“You were amazing! Is that a new song?” He asked taking my hand in his.

“Yea” I said blushing a bit, before I got fed up and gave in to the temptation and pulled Gackt in an embrace.

“I missed you.” I whispered as I hugged him tight, inhaling his scent in. It was musky, it smelt like shampoo mixed with something else, something I’ve never smelt before. Whatever it was, it smelt good.

“I missed you too,” He answered kissing me right below the ear. It made me shiver and I know he felt it.

 

“I knew it!” Tora yelled from behind me.

“You owe me 10 Saga” Hiroto said while he held out his hand.

“Dammit” Saga let out a hiss of frustration.

“How’d he land that when I couldn’t?! Argh” He continued and I heard Nao giggle in the background before he said.

“I knew, Shou was going to get the best” he whispered to Hiro.

“You’re always right! That’s why you’re the bestest to me, baby” He replied rubbing noses together with Nao.

 

“GUYS!” I yelled.

“Don’t talk about me like I’m not here!” I continued shooting them a furious look while all they did was give me innocent looks.

 

“Are you guys going to tell us? Or are we going to have to speculate for ourselves?” Tora asked folding his arms against his chest.

 

Gackt and me exchanged looks before he grabbed me by the waist and replied.

“We’re dating,” he said rather proudly as he nuzzled my cheek with a grin on his face. I only smiled as I nodded.

“That wasn’t so hard now was it?” Tora said with a little smirk on his face.

“You better not hurt him or you’ll have hell to pay for,” Saga said with eyes shooting daggers at Gackt. He was obviously jealous. Tsk.

“I think we should go, I’m starving,” I complained before Gackt could say anything else to Saga.  I didn’t want to see what would have happened if I let this go on.

“Of course” He answered. We said our good-byes and left.

 

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I missed Shou too much to even wait another hour before actually leaving work. I finished whatever I could and just left. ‘I should pick up something special for him, before I pick him up’ I said to myself.

 

By the time I got the Shous studio, it was already 5 past 1pm. I was hoping to surprise him. Well, I got that covered. I got into the mix booth with out a scratch they were in the middle of practice and knowing Shou. When he’s in the zone you can’t zap him out of it until he’s done being in the zone. I know how that feels.

 

I watched him once again sway to the music, his hips swaying from right to left as his hands follows along with the wave as he began to sing with his enchanting voice. I didn't recognize the song. But it sounded really good. The music was perfect, the bass, the drums, the guitars and vocals. They’ve got another hit on their hands.

 

“That was great guys! I think that’ll do, what do you guys think” I heard Shou ask as they ended the song. They all nod in agreement. He smiles at them then turns around and when he did I watched his eyes go wide then soften. I grinned and waved. I could have sworn Shou ran to me. He made it to me too fast for me to notice

 

“Hey…” he said softly, he looked so yummy in my clothes.

“Hey yourself” I answered; I just wanted to push him against the wall and ravish him. Okay… get a hold of yourself Gackto. Say something else.

“You were amazing! Is that a new song?” I asked as I took his hand in mine. Hmmm… soft skin. Not the kind to ever hold an instrument.  

“Yea” He replied before he gave in and hugged me tight.

“I missed you.” He whispered in my ear, his breath hovering over the soft skin, made me warm all over.

“I missed you too,” I answered giving him a lingering kiss right below the ear just to make him feel as hot as I feel right now.

 

I heard a few screams in the background. Seemed like either half the band was expecting it or not, like Saga for example. He seemed like he didn’t like it one bit.

 

“GUYS!” Shou yelled.

“Don’t talk about me like I’m not here!” He shot daggers as soon as he spoke. Cute.

 

“Are you guys going to tell us? Or are we going to have to speculate for ourselves?” Tora asked folding his arms against his chest.

 

I grabbed Shous waist while I still stared at him.

“We’re dating,” I said proudly as I nuzzled Shou’s cheek with a grin on my face.

“That wasn’t so hard now was it?” Tora said.

“You better not hurt him or you’ll have hell to pay for,” Saga said with eyes shooting daggers at me. Woah. What did I do? I was surprised at the statement. I didn’t expect that one bit. I wanted to say something but Shou spoke first.  

“I think we should go, I’m starving,” “Of course” I answered. We said our good-byes and left.

 

“What was that about?” I asked Shou opening the door of the passenger seat for him.

“Sagas just jealous cause I managed to get you and he couldn’t,” He answered smiling cutely, poking his nose up in the air at his firm accomplishment. I laughed lightly at his expression.

 

“I almost forgot, here” I said as I sat myself in the drivers seat and pulled out an elephant Lubie from the glove compartment and handed it to Shou. He instantly grabbed it and squealed,  “Oh my GOD! It's a Lubie! Its sooo cute! Oh my God Gaku! Its just soo freakin cute! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!” he hugged me then planted butterfly kisses all over in between thank yous. He was so adorable I couldn’t help but lean in and capture his lips while he stared at his new toy.

I was surprised to see him so hyper over a little stuffed toy.

 

“Hmm” he moaned as we broke the kiss.

“What was that for?” He asked.

“For being adorable” “Am not” “Are too” and before he could say anything else I caught his lips again. This time the kiss was longer; my tongue played with his lips a little. I wanted to have a taste of what was inside, he granted me entrance and my tongue explored. He was the one to break the kiss this time.

“And that?” he asked in a low voice

“Just wanted a taste,” I replied my lips still hovering over his.

“I think you’re getting a little too hungry, Gaku” He said in a teasing way. I smiled at the nickname. “Perhaps I am getting a little too hungry” I answered him in a low voice as I leaned in to capture his lips again to only fail as Shous finger stopped my lips from advancing. “Nu uh, later” He said, I growled to myself.

He’s going to drive me mad.


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(Elepant Lubies) (I have one) I got it from my luvs. :D
 
 
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redeemeroflight
01 September 2010 @ 08:03 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 6/??
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, Hiroto/Nao and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiousity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: Sorry guys! I was so busy today. I had to artwork some designs and it took me forever because I had no idea what I was doing. Thats what you get if you're a freelance designer.  (I wish I paid more attention to artworkers instead of designers. ) Anyways, I was distracted all day today so the only thing I did was write 1 more page of chapter 7 and edited this. Anyways, I love this one. Its just so O_O and so *-* and so... go on read! I'll have chapter 7 up as soon as I can ! Comment pweese!  ❤❤

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“Gackt…” I whispered as I traced his brow as he sleeps.

“Gackt…” I whispered again trying to softly wake him up, this time I drew an invisible line from his brow down to his nose.

His features are God like. He looks like a heroic Greek statue incarnated into a human being. He was gorgeous, more than gorgeous. I just can’t explain. It’s beyond words. And what happened last night was just like a dream. I could barely believe what had happened.

Usually, my unrequited loves never turn out like this. Never did they ever notice me, never did they encourage or acknowledge my feelings for them no matter how deep and true it was. I was always left heart broken with tears in my eyes. For me the pain in my chest felt almost normal after so many attempts of finding true love. Actually, it felt more than normal I was beginning to like it, no matter how sadistic it sounded it was true. But I still couldn’t help feeling empty and alone like I didn’t have a best friend or lover out there to hear my silent cries and hold me as I vent out on how I felt and how I thought the world was unfair to me.

But the only outlet I had was my voice, my natural born instrument.

It was the only way I could speak and actually be heard by many. I liked the feeling of being heard.

At least once I would like to be the one to talk and be heard. All these years I’ve only just been the listener the one who would take care of those around him. The one who would give the advice and be the shoulder they cried on. Would I be asking so much if I asked the world, if I asked God that I wanted a listener, a shoulder, and a lover to lean on when I had no one else in the world to go to? Would I be selfish? Or would it be greed?

I always thought I was asking too much every year I blew out those candles on top of plain birthday cake everyone thought I liked. Am I really asking so much? Maybe I am.

But last night felt like all my wishes were granted after all these years of being alone. No one ever held me, not like how Gackt held me. It was new and very welcome. No one ever whispered soft words into my ear telling me everything was going to be okay that tomorrow is a new day and a new start of something great.

But I couldn’t help feeling like this; all this will be taken away from me once I wake up from this dream. All the warmth and security I was finally feeling. I’m afraid I’ll lose it all.  I don’t know if my heart would take another blow not like this. Not when I think all my wishes were granted and that I’m finally happy.

But I’ll take the risk, I won’t expect much but I will take the risk and find happiness in him, my savior and my wish.

“Gackt… wake up” I repeated softly as I slowly leaned in to kiss his nose.  He wrinkled his nose and slowly opened his eyes.

“Hey… you’re up” He said in a very sexy husky voice.

“Yea… thanks for last night” I said caressing his cheek slightly. He only smiled when suddenly he grabbed me and positioned me in his arms as he nuzzled against the crook of my neck.

“Why are we awake?” He asked his voice sounded somewhat muffled.

“Because we both have work till 1pm today” I answered tangling my fingers with his hair, which felt soft like silk, but all over the place like a cute little kid with bed hair.

“Come on, we gotta get up, can I use your shower? I don’t like going one day without one” I asked him still playing with his hair.

“Yea, the bathroom is that one over there, you go ahead and shower,” He pointed at the door that was right next to the dresser, he didn’t even bother looking up from the nook of my neck.

“Can I get up after you shower? Please?” He begged cutely.

“Sure” “Okay!” He answered as he nuzzled into my neck even more.

“Umm… you’re going to have to let me go if you want me to wake you after I shower, you know” I told him poking the side of his stomach playfully.

“So demanding!” he said faking a shouting, angry voice before he let me go and moved to a pillow and right before I could get up he pulled me down to kiss me in the most romantic way ever. His hand rested on the side of my face as he continued kissing me. He broke free and said “Good Morning” before he laid back down again and acted like he was sleeping.

I was completely blown away from that kiss. It was just intense and romantic at the same time. This God is just unpredictable. My brain stopped working for a moment. That was just… phew.

When I got my brain cells to work again I continued on to take a quick shower. I didn’t want to finish all the hot water. After all this isn’t my apartment. Only when I got out of the shower I noticed how pretty the bathroom was decorated it was just like a typical bachelors pad but clean and very cozy. Crap, I don’t have any extra clothes. I guess I’ll have to borrow some, so embarrassing. I dried off as much as I can, leaving only a few droplets of water and wrapped a towel around my waist and made my way out of the bathroom and into the bedroom.

“Umm… Gackt…” I started shyly, He only hmmed in response.

“Can I borrow some of your clothes? I’ll have them cleaned and returned to you tomorrow” I asked shyly, at my question he looked up instantly, Oh crap. I felt my cheeks go red. Stop staring. Stop staring.

“Gackt” I said breaking the look he was giving me. He looked like he was going to eat me. Not that I minded but still.

“Sorry… yea… clothes” He said rather distracted. I’m not that nice to look at. Whys he getting distracted for.

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“Umm… Gackt” Shou said waking me into my half-sleep state. He sounded shy. Why would he sound shy?

“Can I borrow some of your clothes? I’ll have them cleaned and returned to you tomorrow” He continued, my clothes? Oh shit. I forgot he didn’t have any extras on him. Great hospitality Gackt. He’s got no clothes to wear now get up and go get him some. Wait. No clothes? I looked up instantly when I realized the fact and there he was wrapped only in a towel.

His body shined in the little sunlight that tried to break free from the cracked curtains. His arms were shaped well and his stomach completely flat. He looks so delicious especially with the wet hair sticking onto his forehead and his lips glistening wet looking swollen and red.

“Gackt” He called out breaking me from my stare. Shit. I was staring.

“Sorry… yea… clothes” I said trying to distract myself so I won’t keep glancing at how barely that towel is covering his… never mind. I got out of bed and walked over to my closet and gave him my black v-neck shirt and slacks that I hope will fit him.

“There you go, I hope they fit,” I told him.

“Thanks” He said retreating to the bathroom.

Right, okay, now to take a shower as well a cold one, a VERY cold shower. I got my clothes ready. I pulled out a white tank with a white button up shirt and blue jeans from the closet.

I heard the bathroom door open and close and I looked up to see how Shou looked in my clothes. The shirt looked a little bit bigger on him than it did on me but it still made him look sexy as the v-neck exposed his collarbones. The pants were too long for him but it fit his waist perfectly, it looked cute.

“How do I look?” He asked as he dried his hair with the tiny towel that was around his waist.

“Good enough to eat” Okay. I did not just say that, but hey it was true. He did look good enough to eat. I gave him smile before pecking him on the cheek and proceeding to the bathroom to take that cold shower.

 

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redeemeroflight
31 August 2010 @ 02:28 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 5/5??
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, Hiroto/Nao and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiousity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: All about Gackt.! Its kind of short! (It actually seemed longer when I wrote it.) ^w^ Sowie. Should I end it here? Or should I continue? Comment pweese! ❤❤

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redeemeroflight
30 August 2010 @ 09:19 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 4/??
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, Hiroto/Nao and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiousity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: and its getting somewhere! Comments are ❤'s!

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redeemeroflight
30 August 2010 @ 12:12 pm
Title: Infatuation
Chapter: 3/??
Author: redeemeroflight
Genre: Angst, Love, Humor, possible xxx?
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings: Shou/Gackt, Hiroto/Nao and mentions of the rest of A9 boys and Miyavi.
Summary: Shou gives up being nothing to Gackt one night only to be introduced to him while hes arms were around someone else. But Gackt sees something different in him and here sparks up his curiousity.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters.
Comments: *siiigh* they're soo cute together. Shou! stop denying him!

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Miyavi didn’t say anything else, he just stood suddenly put down his guitar and grabbed my arm and dragged me out of the studio and into the rather deserted PSC corridor. He maneuvered me straight then left and right and right again to a door that opened to a recording booth within it was actually a practice room and within that practice room was Alice Nine or more specifically Shou.

Miyavi sat me down on the couch, and I nearly squished something in the process. It was a bag I moved it away so I wouldn’t crush it and watched as Miyavi spoke to the guy behind the mixers.

They didn’t notice us come in. Which was what I hoped for. We made it just in time.

“Okay, Waterfall in 5, 4, 3” Shou said with a tired tone. I assume he didn’t get much sleep last night either. His eyes were puffy like he was crying, and if I looked closer they looked so sad.

 

The band started to play and Shou swayed his body from left to right and breathed in deeply before he sang with deep voice.

 

It sounded so enchanting and sad especially with the sound of the bass and drums playing in the background with the faint sounds of the guitars meeting them rarely.

 

 I recognized the song and the way he sung it now and the way he sung it in the CD were different. He sounded so sad and hurt. Especially when he sung these words I can't say good-bye to you’ he sung it like he meant it, like he wouldn’t let go of something.

 

Throughout the song I was dumbfounded at how good they were and how Shou’s voice was, he’s just incredible.

 

I couldn’t keep my eyes off him; I can’t keep my eyes off how he swayed his body as he sang with his hands on the mic, singing away his frustrations and pain. He really is incredible.

 

I felt an elbow poke the side of my arm.

“Oy, you’re gawking” Meevs said, he looked at me then at Shou, then at me again. I opened my mouth to about speak only to be interrupted.

“Shou? You’re crushing on Shou? Why didn’t I see that one coming,” He asked himself as he palmed his forehead. I just smiled and continued, ‘gawking’ at my little ‘crush’.

“G, I think Shous’ hung up on someone already” I heard Meevs say.

“Yea, I can tell but look at him. Who ever he is, he’s torturing Shou” I replied not once looking away from the object of my ‘gawking’.

“And you’re going to swoon in like a knight in shining armor to save him?” Miyavi continued in a rather mocking tone.

“You could say that” I replied.

“Okay, as long as you know what you’re doing. I won’t stop you” He finished.

 

The music faded in the background. I watched Shou open his eyes slowly and then they widened when they caught sight of me.

“Shou, that was great!” “Yea, man! You’re really fired up this time” Tora and Saga said as they both patted Shou in the back before noticing Shou’s face and they turned following his gaze and caught me and Miyavi in the recording booth.

“Hey guys!” Miyavi said standing from his seat and waved cheerfully. I stood as well and just smiled at them.

 

Instantly Tora and Saga entered the booth. They were asking what I thought of the song and I answered honestly, they also asked what brought me here.

 

My eyes didn’t leave Shou’s as he looked away, removed and hung the headphones on the mic and walked into the booth. Just when I thought he would say hello he didn’t he faintly smiled at Miyavi and walked right past me and out the door. What brought me here was Shou and I just watched him walk out of my sight. I didn’t reply I just excused myself and walked right after Shou.

 

I walked out and into the corridor to find it empty. I continued on looking for Shou to find him sitting on the steps of the staircase. I stopped at the doorframe and just waited for him to sense my presence.

 

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What the fuck? Everywhere I go I keep on being reminded or being haunted by him. What’s he trying to do? Why’s he stalking me all of the sudden? Argh!

 

Stupid. It isn’t about you. You saw him; he came for Miyavi and then Tora and Saga. DUH. It’s not about you and it’ll never be. Get it? I feel so stupid.

 

I walked out of the practice room, and into the booth. I smiled at Miyavi as I walked out and made my way to the staircase where I can be alone and deal with my self-pity and depression.

 

What should I do now? He won’t leave. Of course he won’t he’s everyone else’s friend. Its obvious he’ll keep coming back, he’ll be around more and even worse the guys will start hanging out with him more and that means I have to hang out with him too.

 

Argh. So much for avoidance, I guess I have to suck it up and befriend him too. Okay, this isn’t so bad. I can deal with it. I can deal with his talk of women. I can deal with him possibly make out with them in front of me like how he did last night and what Tora usually does when he manages to get a date. I feel my chest tighten at the thought.

 

“Can I really do this?” I whispered to myself.

“Do what?” I jump and swear as I hear a deep voice say from behind. I look around instantly and see Gackt looking down at me.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you” He apologized as he sits himself next to me.

I can feel the warmth radiating from him.

“Its okay, what’re you doing here?” I asked him totally ignoring his first question.

“Just wanted to say hi,” He replied, he’s charming.

“Hi” I said smiling up at him. Its funny how I’m still looking up at him even when we’re sitting.  

“Hey there” He said smiling at me; it wasn’t one of his signature smiles. This one was more genuine, more sincere; it made my heart leap inside my rib cage.

“You sang really well in there, I haven’t heard singing like that in awhile” He’s actually complimenting me.

“Woah, Thank you” I said in a giggly tone with a stupid grin on my face and then I felt my face heat up. I was flattered I couldn’t help it.

 

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He’s too cute for his own good. The way he thanked me with that grin was just adorable. I can’t stop staring at him. Was that a blush? Can he get any cuter?

 

“You’re welcome,” I said, giving him a half smile. I looked away for the first time since I made my presence known.

“Shouldn’t you go back?” I asked him.

“In a bit, I just need a little break, that kind of took way too much energy away from me” He replied rubbing his eyes in the most adorable way ever that I couldn’t help but smile at him.

“Yeah, I know what that's like, this is going to sound a little girly but I faint sometimes because of it” I told him slightly blushing waiting for him to laugh.

And he did. His laugh was music to my ears and not to mention cute. Especially when his nose wrinkled. Very Cute.

“I know,” He answered. I didn’t expect that. He knows?

“Sorry if I sounded a bit weird there, I’m kind of one of your fans” He confessed. This isn’t the first time I liked someone who already knew who I was. Even before I met them. I guess its normal for all of us in the business.

 

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“There you are! We were looking everywhere for you two” Saga said as he entered the stairway.

“Aren’t you guys coming back in, or do you two need some alone time?” Saga teased and I gave him the look that said ‘another word from you and I’ll have your head for this’.

 

“I’m coming” I stood up and followed Saga back into the studio hoping Gackt followed along behind me.

 

I was overwhelmed; I can’t believe I actually had a decent conversation with the man I’ve been in love with in years. Okay, that sounded stupid. Its normal to talk to the one you love. But in my case, it never happens. I feel pathetic right now.

 

I couldn’t help but look back to check if Gackt followed along and he did. I was glad but I didn’t show it.

 

“Where have you been?” Tora says as soon as we entered the studio. He sounded like a mom. He even had his hands on his hips.

“I was tired and wanted some time alone” I replied innocently. It was the half-truth I was tired and I wanted to be alone. I left out the part where I wanted to get away from Gackt.

 

“More like alone with Gackt!” Saga inserted with a teasing smile. I ignored his childish ways until he started smooching the air then I just snapped. I moved forward about to attack when a pair of arms came up from behind me and stopped me.

 

“You’re such a child Saga! Grow up!” I yelled. My cheeks flushed. ARGH. I hate him. I tried to break free from Gackt’s grasp to really give it to Saga, Argh! I’m furious! But then Gackt’s arms fully encircled my body and he softly whispered into my ear.

 

“Hey, he’s just trying to push you off the edge, don’t let him get to you”

“Oh look how cute Shou’s being! He’s even pouting!” Saga said giving me a little pinch in the cheek. Oh no he did not just do that! I let out a growl trying to go at him again but Gackt’s arms tightened softly and calmed me down. I breathed hard; Saga just gets on my nerves.

 

“Ugh!” I yelled in frustration and I subconsciously turned in Gackt’s arms and rested my head on his chest nuzzling in for comfort. It feels so nice.

 

Fuck. What am I doing? I broke away from his arms.

 

“Sorry, I didn’t realize—“ I didn’t finish I just turned around to find the whole band and Miyavi staring.

“Lets get back to practicing” I said breaking through the audience and into the practice room.

 

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Watching Saga as he teased Shou to no ends was entertaining. I smiled at the sight. I laughed a bit at Sagas words and Shous reaction.

 

Shou got really angry and after that I couldn’t help but hold him back. I took a hold of both his arms as he tried launching himself at band mate.

 

“You’re such a child Saga! Grow up!” He yelled. He struggled, trying to release himself from my grasp but it only made me encircle my arms around him completely. I don’t know what got into me I just leaned softly against him and whispered in his ear telling him Sagas just trying to get the best out of him.

 

“Oh look how cute Shou’s being! He’s even pouting!” Saga continued trying to really piss Shou off even more as he added a little pinch to his cheek.

 

Well, Saga was right. Shou was being cute and he was pouting. But I wouldn’t dare say anything as Shou literally let out a growl and tried launching himself at Saga again but I tightened my arms around him trying to calm him down.

 

“Ugh” Shou yelled and to my surprise turned in my arms and nuzzled against my chest like a child. It was so cute and so comfortable I didn’t want to ever let him go. It just felt so right. He fit just right in my arms. Before I could savor the moment we had he broke free form my arms and apologized and turned back to continue practicing.

 

I felt empty as soon as he’s warmth left my arms. He really is different.

 

 

 
 
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